Hello one and all! Time for another confession. I don't particularly want to make this confession...but I figure it best to do so quickly so that you have time to think about what I'm about to say. I'm coming home. Relatively soon, actually. For the past five months, I've had some highs and some very bad lows. Recently, the lows have been getting worse and more prolonged. I have a hard time finding energy to just smile some days. So...I talked to a psychologist in Japan and he recommended that I come home to get treatment. Apparently I'm suffering from severe depression.

The thought of coming home is both a relief and a disappointment. I love it here in Korea. The food is delicious. Everyone is remarkably kind and respectful. I've seen some miracles. Three of the sisters I've had the opportunity to help teach have been baptized (though I only got to physically see one this last week). They will be great members, and I consider it a real privilege that I've been able to meet them. I wasn't able to say much, but I was able to testify. Which I'll do now. I know that this church is true. I know that Joseph Smith was a prophet, and through him, Heavenly Father restored His church on this earth. I know that God answers prayers, even though I sometimes don't feel as though they are. He has helped me make it this far in my mission. And though I feel as I've failed Him, I do know He loves me. And you. If we follow His commandments, we will be blessed. I've seen it in my life.

I don't want to come home, but I can't wait to see all of you again. Thank you for your continued support. I've appreciated your prayers on my behalf. The church is true regardless of where I am or what I'm doing, which is a great comfort. The next few weeks will be rough. But through God's help we can do anything. I love you all!

Sister Erica Ellen Oates